So if anyone who reads my blogs here cares enough, I've moved blogging sites. I now blog on Tumblr. So yeah, find me there now.
angelinexo.tumblr.com
Peace, love, and music ♥
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
To Be Determined :)
To Be Determined
by Angeline Pastrana
written for Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Jason Rosen, and Andrew Lee
also known as Honor Society
Everything is going wrong
Millions of thoughts in my mind
Nothing's going right today
A peaceful moment so hard to find
Til I grab the MP3
Set my playlist to your songs
Turn it up loud
And listen all night long
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is more than special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever until eternity
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When dealing with hardships never faced
You, my loves, are my saving grace
I turn my heart and soul to you
Slightly pathetic, but totally true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
And you may never know me
But I write this song for you.
Alright, so that's the official poem. Thanks SO SO much to GRACE<3 for all her input! You rock, girlie! <333
Stef: Sorry I don't have time to send this to you personally and explain everything, but computer time is hard to come by on vacay haha So just text me with any questions or comments or stuff. Whici I'll probably tell you when I text you anyway, so yeah. Stef. You rock. Just sayin'. <3
Oh. And the title was totally from Grace as well. Here's her explanation:
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
P.S. A blog about my full vacay here in Florida will come either Saturday, or after I finish all these summer assignments which have been building, which most likely won't be til school starst :(
by Angeline Pastrana
written for Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Jason Rosen, and Andrew Lee
also known as Honor Society
Everything is going wrong
Millions of thoughts in my mind
Nothing's going right today
A peaceful moment so hard to find
Til I grab the MP3
Set my playlist to your songs
Turn it up loud
And listen all night long
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is more than special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever until eternity
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When dealing with hardships never faced
You, my loves, are my saving grace
I turn my heart and soul to you
Slightly pathetic, but totally true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things always seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
And you may never know me
But I write this song for you.
Alright, so that's the official poem. Thanks SO SO much to GRACE<3 for all her input! You rock, girlie! <333
Stef: Sorry I don't have time to send this to you personally and explain everything, but computer time is hard to come by on vacay haha So just text me with any questions or comments or stuff. Whici I'll probably tell you when I text you anyway, so yeah. Stef. You rock. Just sayin'. <3
Oh. And the title was totally from Grace as well. Here's her explanation:
I really like it! I thought the title was 'To be Determined'... Now that I know it's not, hah, I just have to say that I kind of like that as a title. Like... my life is to be determined, but you boys always pull through.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
P.S. A blog about my full vacay here in Florida will come either Saturday, or after I finish all these summer assignments which have been building, which most likely won't be til school starst :(
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Yet to Be Determined poem/song take 2.
[Yet to Be Determined Title]
by Angeline Pastrana
written for Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Jason Rosen, and Andrew Lee
also known as Honor Society
Everything is going wrong
Millions of thoughts in my mind
Nothing's going right today
A peaceful moment so hard to find
Until I reach for my iPod
Set my playlist of your songs
Turn it up loud
And just listen all night long
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is more than special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever until eternity
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When dealing with hardships never faced
You, my loves, are my saving grace
I turn my heart and soul to you
Slightly pathetic, but totally true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
And you may never know me
But I write this song for you.
So yeah, I kinda did some major editing on it. I don't know why. Oh, and Grace, I still can't believe it, but my friend may be able to actually hand this poem song to the gents!!! This is why I'm being so critical. So be honest. This needs to be perfect.
by Angeline Pastrana
written for Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Jason Rosen, and Andrew Lee
also known as Honor Society
Everything is going wrong
Millions of thoughts in my mind
Nothing's going right today
A peaceful moment so hard to find
Until I reach for my iPod
Set my playlist of your songs
Turn it up loud
And just listen all night long
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is more than special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever until eternity
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When dealing with hardships never faced
You, my loves, are my saving grace
I turn my heart and soul to you
Slightly pathetic, but totally true
Your music soothes my soul
Your lyrics work like magic
You gents are my secret cure
When things seem so tragic
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
And you may never know me
But I write this song for you.
So yeah, I kinda did some major editing on it. I don't know why. Oh, and Grace, I still can't believe it, but my friend may be able to actually hand this poem song to the gents!!! This is why I'm being so critical. So be honest. This needs to be perfect.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I am the QUEEN of procrastination
Case in point: School starts in less than three weeks. I'll be in Orlando all of next week. And out of all my summer assignments I have done: zero. On my to do list: an essay on the Grapes of Wrath, an essay on Frankenstein, a rough draft of a college application essay, three TPCASTTs, a reading journal for Kite Runner, 10 entries of current political events throughout the summer, a few more vocab words for government, and a study guide for psychology.
Yeah. Pray for me, guys.
And to make things worse, I've taken on ADDITIONAL projects in my attempt to not do summer homework, which I must still manage to continue doing. Those things include: running a state street team for White Rose (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband), running a fansite for Bulldozer (www.bulldozer-online.com), learning how to play guitar and piano, possibly starting a fansite for Chris Via (www.myspace.com/chrisviamusic), and having to plan my debut and cotillion practices.
My life is going to be hell for the next couple of weeks, let me tell you that.
And I'll take responsibility for it. It is all my fault. Part of me wishes that I had done things differently, managed my time better. But this summer has been pretty darn amazing, so you know, I'll live with it.
So expect either lots of stressed blogs in weeks to come, or absolutely nothing hahaha
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Yeah. Pray for me, guys.
And to make things worse, I've taken on ADDITIONAL projects in my attempt to not do summer homework, which I must still manage to continue doing. Those things include: running a state street team for White Rose (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband), running a fansite for Bulldozer (www.bulldozer-online.com), learning how to play guitar and piano, possibly starting a fansite for Chris Via (www.myspace.com/chrisviamusic), and having to plan my debut and cotillion practices.
My life is going to be hell for the next couple of weeks, let me tell you that.
And I'll take responsibility for it. It is all my fault. Part of me wishes that I had done things differently, managed my time better. But this summer has been pretty darn amazing, so you know, I'll live with it.
So expect either lots of stressed blogs in weeks to come, or absolutely nothing hahaha
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Monday, August 17, 2009
Maybe my all just wasn't good enough
Aren't your parents supposed to be your biggest supporters?
Then why do mine feel like they're more my biggest critics a lot of the time.
Is it really any wonder why I want to get out of here for college? I love them, but I don't think I can take this for another four years.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
[P.S. Title cred: "Was I the Only One?" by Jordin Sparks]
Then why do mine feel like they're more my biggest critics a lot of the time.
Is it really any wonder why I want to get out of here for college? I love them, but I don't think I can take this for another four years.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
[P.S. Title cred: "Was I the Only One?" by Jordin Sparks]
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Don't Ask.
Deserts
We think of deserts as barren places, which are almost devoid of vegetation or wildlife. However, many plants grow in deserts, sending down deep roots to collect moisture from far beneath the surface and storing it in their leaves. The plants open out only in the early morning or early evening, when the worst of th heat is over. Certain animal species have also adapted to survival in this apparently hostile environment.
The sand in the desert seems to be endless, and this sense of infinity is associated with spiritual qualities because of the belief that the universe is infinite and we are part of that. Sometimes the sand is threatening, as it is in dreams in which the dreamer sinks down into it. This indicates a lack of solidity; if your world is shifting around you, you lose your bearings.
If you dream of being in a desert, this may reflect feelings of isolation or of being in a "cultural desert" - a place that holds no interest for you. If you find yourself on a desert island, does this concern a desire to get away and have some quiet time?
Connections:
To "desert" someone is to abandon them. Could your dream desert relate to a feeling that you have been left behind?
Is your life like a desert - poor on the surface, but rich beneath the ground?
Credit: "The Dream Bible: the Definitive Guide to Every Dream Symbol Under the Moon" by Brenda Mallon
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
We think of deserts as barren places, which are almost devoid of vegetation or wildlife. However, many plants grow in deserts, sending down deep roots to collect moisture from far beneath the surface and storing it in their leaves. The plants open out only in the early morning or early evening, when the worst of th heat is over. Certain animal species have also adapted to survival in this apparently hostile environment.
The sand in the desert seems to be endless, and this sense of infinity is associated with spiritual qualities because of the belief that the universe is infinite and we are part of that. Sometimes the sand is threatening, as it is in dreams in which the dreamer sinks down into it. This indicates a lack of solidity; if your world is shifting around you, you lose your bearings.
If you dream of being in a desert, this may reflect feelings of isolation or of being in a "cultural desert" - a place that holds no interest for you. If you find yourself on a desert island, does this concern a desire to get away and have some quiet time?
Connections:
To "desert" someone is to abandon them. Could your dream desert relate to a feeling that you have been left behind?
Is your life like a desert - poor on the surface, but rich beneath the ground?
Credit: "The Dream Bible: the Definitive Guide to Every Dream Symbol Under the Moon" by Brenda Mallon
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Friday, August 14, 2009
Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda
Not quite sure how I feel about this, but this is what I wrote for Tatay Juan. It's called Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda:
Everyone saw it coming
But it doesn't dull the pain
All I remember is your smiling face
Lighting up your shrinking frame
And I smile a sad little smile
With tears in my eyes
Wishing I saw you one more time
Wishing I had said goodbye
If I could go back in time
I woulda tried to make you feel less blue
I coulda just stayed by your side
I shoulda told you I loved you
But woulda, coulda, shoulda
All add up to didn't
And now I've lost the chance
To show you how much you meant
We lost touch after so many years
But you're still a part of me
You practically raised me when I was little
You taught me how to be
The best I ever could
But I didn't always listen
I regret that choice
Now I'm just left wishin'
If I could go back in time
I woulda tried to make you feel less blue
I coulda just stayed by your side
I shoulda told you I loved you
But woulda, coulda, shoulda
All add up to didn't
And now I've lost the chance
To show you how much you meant
The world's still spinnin'
But I'll still be missin... you.
So what do you think? Be gentle as this is pretty close to my heart.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Everyone saw it coming
But it doesn't dull the pain
All I remember is your smiling face
Lighting up your shrinking frame
And I smile a sad little smile
With tears in my eyes
Wishing I saw you one more time
Wishing I had said goodbye
If I could go back in time
I woulda tried to make you feel less blue
I coulda just stayed by your side
I shoulda told you I loved you
But woulda, coulda, shoulda
All add up to didn't
And now I've lost the chance
To show you how much you meant
We lost touch after so many years
But you're still a part of me
You practically raised me when I was little
You taught me how to be
The best I ever could
But I didn't always listen
I regret that choice
Now I'm just left wishin'
If I could go back in time
I woulda tried to make you feel less blue
I coulda just stayed by your side
I shoulda told you I loved you
But woulda, coulda, shoulda
All add up to didn't
And now I've lost the chance
To show you how much you meant
The world's still spinnin'
But I'll still be missin... you.
So what do you think? Be gentle as this is pretty close to my heart.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Poem/Song One
"It's one of those days
Where nothing goes right
Everything's wrong
But as day falls
And becomes night
As I listen to your songs
And I feel at peace
Your words are healing
When my heart is breaking
Your music soothing
When my eyes are burning
With tears
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is something special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever and always
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your words are healing
When my heart is breaking
Your music soothing
When my eyes are burning
With tears
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When my world feels like crashing
I turn to you
You're my saving grace
Pathetic, but true
And you may never know me
But I sing [write?] this song for you."
Soooo. I wrote this song today. It could be about any band, but for me, as I wrote this, my mind was completely on the gentlemen of Honor Society. <33
But I need ideas for the title. And in the end if I should use sing or write. Sooo. Let me know. Kay?
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Where nothing goes right
Everything's wrong
But as day falls
And becomes night
As I listen to your songs
And I feel at peace
Your words are healing
When my heart is breaking
Your music soothing
When my eyes are burning
With tears
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
It may seem silly
That a band could mean so much
But your music is something special
It's my soul you've touched
I will always be a fan
Of your music, and of you
Forever and always
I'll be here, loyal and true
Your words are healing
When my heart is breaking
Your music soothing
When my eyes are burning
With tears
You get me through the hardest part
Your voice is like an angel's
Singing to my heart
When my world feels like crashing
I turn to you
You're my saving grace
Pathetic, but true
And you may never know me
But I sing [write?] this song for you."
Soooo. I wrote this song today. It could be about any band, but for me, as I wrote this, my mind was completely on the gentlemen of Honor Society. <33
But I need ideas for the title. And in the end if I should use sing or write. Sooo. Let me know. Kay?
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
It's just not hitting me yet...
Rest in Peace, Tatay Juan <33
It's been maybe two weeks since I last visited Tatay Juan. I wish I had visited him again more often. Woulda, coulda, shoulda :/
I'll be honest. I wasn't that close with Tatay Juan. But he used to watch me with Nanay Belen when I was just a little baby, and it's like he helped shape who I am, even if I don't remember any of it. He was still a huge part of my life.
And now my parents are really starting to piss me off. So we were supposed to take a road trip tomorrow to Dover to go shopping. Well, obviously, with the news, plans have been canceled. Now they're laughing that I don't get to go shopping anymore. Really? Are you that effin' insensitive? Maybe it's their way of coping, but really? Shut the eff up, I don't want to hear it.
I do feel really sad about this... but I still feel like I'm either a coldhearted bitch or I'm just in shock and numb or something, because no tears have come yet. I've never really lost anyone close to me, so I'm not sure how I'd react or cope. But being an emotional person, I would've thought I'd've broken down by now or something. Maybe that'll come later?
I'll probably cry in bed tonight. That's where I tend to do most of my crying usually.
Change of plans? Seems like if we can't cancel the hotel reservations, we're still going to Dover tomorrow. I'm not quite sure how I feel about this. I mean, cool, I get to go shopping, have fun with my cousins and all... but I'd feel guilty. I mean, Tatay Juan JUST died. And we'd end up having to leave Matthew since it's through his daddy that we know Tatay Juan in the first place (Matthew's dad is Tatay Juan's blood nephew). If we still end up going tomorrow, everything will feel just off, I know it.
And I guess now I see how I'm coping. I'm very on edge and overall bitchy right now. I'm supposed to be helping my mommy do something for the credit card, but I'm just really on edge and snapping and starting to get pissed off for no real reason in general.
I think I'm all blogged out right now.
I was working on a song, earlier, so if I finish that up, I'll post that tonight. And I think tonight, I'd like to try and write Tatay Juan a song. Well, as much of a song I can write, which is just lyrics.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
RIP TATAY JUAN <333
It's been maybe two weeks since I last visited Tatay Juan. I wish I had visited him again more often. Woulda, coulda, shoulda :/
I'll be honest. I wasn't that close with Tatay Juan. But he used to watch me with Nanay Belen when I was just a little baby, and it's like he helped shape who I am, even if I don't remember any of it. He was still a huge part of my life.
And now my parents are really starting to piss me off. So we were supposed to take a road trip tomorrow to Dover to go shopping. Well, obviously, with the news, plans have been canceled. Now they're laughing that I don't get to go shopping anymore. Really? Are you that effin' insensitive? Maybe it's their way of coping, but really? Shut the eff up, I don't want to hear it.
I do feel really sad about this... but I still feel like I'm either a coldhearted bitch or I'm just in shock and numb or something, because no tears have come yet. I've never really lost anyone close to me, so I'm not sure how I'd react or cope. But being an emotional person, I would've thought I'd've broken down by now or something. Maybe that'll come later?
I'll probably cry in bed tonight. That's where I tend to do most of my crying usually.
Change of plans? Seems like if we can't cancel the hotel reservations, we're still going to Dover tomorrow. I'm not quite sure how I feel about this. I mean, cool, I get to go shopping, have fun with my cousins and all... but I'd feel guilty. I mean, Tatay Juan JUST died. And we'd end up having to leave Matthew since it's through his daddy that we know Tatay Juan in the first place (Matthew's dad is Tatay Juan's blood nephew). If we still end up going tomorrow, everything will feel just off, I know it.
And I guess now I see how I'm coping. I'm very on edge and overall bitchy right now. I'm supposed to be helping my mommy do something for the credit card, but I'm just really on edge and snapping and starting to get pissed off for no real reason in general.
I think I'm all blogged out right now.
I was working on a song, earlier, so if I finish that up, I'll post that tonight. And I think tonight, I'd like to try and write Tatay Juan a song. Well, as much of a song I can write, which is just lyrics.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
RIP TATAY JUAN <333
Thursday, August 13, 2009
She's gotta be somebody's only light
[Title lyric cred: "Somebody's Baby" by Mark Mejia]
So. Hi. I'm bored. And I feel like writing. But, once again, I have no inspiration for any songs or poems or stories. So to the blog it is! :)
I tried out tumblr. Yeah, not really digging it much. And I only had like two friends :( Then again, I only have two friends here too, but whatevs :)
Me and my cousins have been TokBoxing (webcam thing) and taking screen cap pics which are now all over my Facebook and Myspace. Because yes, we have no lives. It's fun. We get to act like dorks and have photographic proof of it xD
Let's see, let's see. What's new in my life?
Not much. Still promoting WHITE ROSE (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband) like CRAZYYYY. I can't wait to see them make it to the top and be like BAM. Yeah, I saw their talent from the very beginning, what?! hahahah.
And now I keep getting distracted from other people's blogs, TokBoxing, tweeting, and other random things going on in my mind :)
Oh man, I'm kinda weak right now. Who knew you could have such hilarious moments on TokBox when there's no sound? xD Little teapot is now an inside joke :) And the itsy bitsy spider xD
Okay, sorry. Back to blogging.
Honor Society also definitely has a HUGE part of my heart right now. I listen to their music NONSTOP. I am counting down the days until their album arrives in the mail. Their album cover is the wall paper on my cell phone, iPod, AND computer. I'll admit, I'm getting reallyyyy fangirly over them. I'm a bit embarrassed, but I can't help it! Can you blame me? I really, really wanna meet them and get to know them. And as of right now, Andy's got most control of my heart cause that boy is looking FINE on that album cover ;) I kinda think that the album cover is too Jonasish... I think they should've spiced it up Honor Society style, but I love it nonetheless.
Back to the White Rose thing... Yeah, I'm a bit sporadic in my thought process. And very random. These words are straight from brain to computer, no filtering or editing (except for spelling and grammar. sorry, I'm a writer, what do you expect?) But yes. I really want to meet those amazing guys as well! Facebook wall posts are not enough! I really hope they can save up enough money to come see us in VA. I need to rally up more fans though. I'm wondering if I'm winning for that contest? I had a mini surge in the beginning, but now nobody else is doing it anymore :(
Oh lord, I'm having too much fun on TokBox with one of my best friends / cousin, Meg. DANCE PARTY :D with no sound. But still fun!
This blog has taken me entirely too long to type xD Maybe an hour. I get distracted easily. Sorry.
Til next time, friends!
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
So. Hi. I'm bored. And I feel like writing. But, once again, I have no inspiration for any songs or poems or stories. So to the blog it is! :)
I tried out tumblr. Yeah, not really digging it much. And I only had like two friends :( Then again, I only have two friends here too, but whatevs :)
Me and my cousins have been TokBoxing (webcam thing) and taking screen cap pics which are now all over my Facebook and Myspace. Because yes, we have no lives. It's fun. We get to act like dorks and have photographic proof of it xD
Let's see, let's see. What's new in my life?
Not much. Still promoting WHITE ROSE (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband) like CRAZYYYY. I can't wait to see them make it to the top and be like BAM. Yeah, I saw their talent from the very beginning, what?! hahahah.
And now I keep getting distracted from other people's blogs, TokBoxing, tweeting, and other random things going on in my mind :)
Oh man, I'm kinda weak right now. Who knew you could have such hilarious moments on TokBox when there's no sound? xD Little teapot is now an inside joke :) And the itsy bitsy spider xD
Okay, sorry. Back to blogging.
Honor Society also definitely has a HUGE part of my heart right now. I listen to their music NONSTOP. I am counting down the days until their album arrives in the mail. Their album cover is the wall paper on my cell phone, iPod, AND computer. I'll admit, I'm getting reallyyyy fangirly over them. I'm a bit embarrassed, but I can't help it! Can you blame me? I really, really wanna meet them and get to know them. And as of right now, Andy's got most control of my heart cause that boy is looking FINE on that album cover ;) I kinda think that the album cover is too Jonasish... I think they should've spiced it up Honor Society style, but I love it nonetheless.
Back to the White Rose thing... Yeah, I'm a bit sporadic in my thought process. And very random. These words are straight from brain to computer, no filtering or editing (except for spelling and grammar. sorry, I'm a writer, what do you expect?) But yes. I really want to meet those amazing guys as well! Facebook wall posts are not enough! I really hope they can save up enough money to come see us in VA. I need to rally up more fans though. I'm wondering if I'm winning for that contest? I had a mini surge in the beginning, but now nobody else is doing it anymore :(
Oh lord, I'm having too much fun on TokBox with one of my best friends / cousin, Meg. DANCE PARTY :D with no sound. But still fun!
This blog has taken me entirely too long to type xD Maybe an hour. I get distracted easily. Sorry.
Til next time, friends!
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Friday, August 7, 2009
When will you figure out...
... that calling me fat every chance you get, even with other people around, is NOT going to help me AT ALL. In fact, it just makes me want to pig out on chocolate anymore.
Kay, thanks.
Ange♥
Kay, thanks.
Ange♥
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Guess what today is....
it's AUGUST 5th!!
and you know what that means?!....
You get to start helping me win a little contest!! Haha. But I'm not joking. Please?
Okay, so if you're still reading, that means you're gonna do it, right? Yay you! :)
So here's what you should do:
♥ Check out and listen to WHITE ROSE (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband). Then add them as a friend on MySpace, and in the little box where you can add a message, tell them ANGELINE from the VA STREET TEAM sent you :)
♥ Friend request them on FACEBOOK! And message them that I sent you!
Start off with Will, cause he's the coolest (hahahaha): http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/Wtenney10?ref=ts&__a=1
Then the rest of the band:
Ben (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/benstein69?ref=ts&__a=1)
Brandyn (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=679336356&ref=ts) AND it's his birthday today, so you should totally tell him a happy birthday!
and Matt (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=1373790059&ref=ts)
♥ Follow them on twitter!!! And @reply them that I (@angelinexo) sent you!!
www.twitter.com/wtisfridayshero
OH! And this doesn't get me any points, but you should totally become a fan of White Rose. I don't have the link on hand, but find it on my page. I'm pretty sure I suggested it to every single friend I have here on Facebook anyway haha
Yup, that's all! If you want to be a SUPERSTAR in my book, then also tell your friends to add them with a referral from me! Hahahha
And WHITE ROSE is already freakin' awesome, so it's not like you'd lose anything. You'd win the knowledge of an epic band. So why not do it?
But yeah, if you do this, then you're awesome. You're sick nasty. You're rad. You're phat. You're epic.
Loveyou.
Kaythanksbye.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
and you know what that means?!....
You get to start helping me win a little contest!! Haha. But I'm not joking. Please?
Okay, so if you're still reading, that means you're gonna do it, right? Yay you! :)
So here's what you should do:
♥ Check out and listen to WHITE ROSE (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband). Then add them as a friend on MySpace, and in the little box where you can add a message, tell them ANGELINE from the VA STREET TEAM sent you :)
♥ Friend request them on FACEBOOK! And message them that I sent you!
Start off with Will, cause he's the coolest (hahahaha): http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/Wtenney10?ref=ts&__a=1
Then the rest of the band:
Ben (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/benstein69?ref=ts&__a=1)
Brandyn (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=679336356&ref=ts) AND it's his birthday today, so you should totally tell him a happy birthday!
and Matt (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=1373790059&ref=ts)
♥ Follow them on twitter!!! And @reply them that I (@angelinexo) sent you!!
www.twitter.com/wtisfridayshero
OH! And this doesn't get me any points, but you should totally become a fan of White Rose. I don't have the link on hand, but find it on my page. I'm pretty sure I suggested it to every single friend I have here on Facebook anyway haha
Yup, that's all! If you want to be a SUPERSTAR in my book, then also tell your friends to add them with a referral from me! Hahahha
And WHITE ROSE is already freakin' awesome, so it's not like you'd lose anything. You'd win the knowledge of an epic band. So why not do it?
But yeah, if you do this, then you're awesome. You're sick nasty. You're rad. You're phat. You're epic.
Loveyou.
Kaythanksbye.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I want you to rescue me.
[Title cred goes to Honor Society; "This Bed is an Ocean"]
I am in the mood to write. And as I have absolutely NO inspiration for any poetry/songs or fanfics, my blog will get the love and attention instead :)
I really really really want to write right now. Like a song or something. But I have NO inspiration. It sucks so bad. I need something exciting in my life to happen so I can write about it!
I love summer, I really do. Except for the stupid summer assignments (curse AP over-achievement). And the fact that I hardly get to see my friends from school.
But besides that, it's great!
This summer especially has been pretty busy. With mentorship at a doctor's office from 8-12 (or usually earlier, but shh). Then I usually come home and bum on the computer instead of work on summer assignments (which should really change... soon). Fridays I have library volunteering 2-4, but this week will be the last (yay!). And at least once a week, Erika comes over and we hang out :)
Oh! And today, at the library, I participated in this Murder Mystery game thing. It sounds dorky, but it was pretty fun :) I was the heartbroken, still bitter ex-girlfriend :D I'm just mad that I didn't really warm up to the other people until near the end. I for sure am gonna do it again next year :)
I've been meaning to volunteer at my old daycare too. I went once last week, but I've been busy ever since. I've been meaning to go back. I should, tomorrow, since it's my only free day this week, but a part of me wants to come home and sleep and bum out. That's bad. :/ We'll see how I feel tomorrow haha
Ugh. And I've been meaning to work out more, but that's been an epic fail as well. I've stopped my nightly crunches due to late night internet surfing. And the treadmill is such a foreign object to me now haha. I should really fix that too.
I feel like skipping mentorship tomorrow. Maybe I will. I'll still wake up earlyish... Like 10. Then run or do Wii fit. And do daycare in the afternoon. I just don't have the energy in me (yet) to do it all at once, cause technically I could still do all of that without skipping mentorship (except the sleeping in part).
But anyways...
I've still been totally immersed in trying to spread the word about this EPICALLY AMAZING band called WHITE ROSE (who you should totally check out if you haven't already). Honestly, I'm not usually into their kind of music (punk/pop/rock) but I'm really liking their sound. Legit, legit. And they're all really sweet and grateful for ALL their fans, even if they are a bit odd sometimes (they ARE teenage boys after all). I'm still trying to figure out how to buy their EPs on iTunes without alerting my parents that I'm using my debit card for even MORE music (I just ordered All Time Low's "Nothing Personal" and bought Demi Lovato's "Here We Go Again"). If I had known about White Rose before buying Demi's CD, I would've gotten theirs instead :(
I also still need to get "Magic" by Honor Society (the owners of the OTHER half of my heart). I've been soooo into listening and promoting music lately. I almost feel like a Mandy wannabe haha I wish I could travel to their shows and meet them and stuff. That is one of my dreams now <33
And I keep getting sidetracked from finishing this blog, so I'll just end it here for the night.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
I am in the mood to write. And as I have absolutely NO inspiration for any poetry/songs or fanfics, my blog will get the love and attention instead :)
I really really really want to write right now. Like a song or something. But I have NO inspiration. It sucks so bad. I need something exciting in my life to happen so I can write about it!
I love summer, I really do. Except for the stupid summer assignments (curse AP over-achievement). And the fact that I hardly get to see my friends from school.
But besides that, it's great!
This summer especially has been pretty busy. With mentorship at a doctor's office from 8-12 (or usually earlier, but shh). Then I usually come home and bum on the computer instead of work on summer assignments (which should really change... soon). Fridays I have library volunteering 2-4, but this week will be the last (yay!). And at least once a week, Erika comes over and we hang out :)
Oh! And today, at the library, I participated in this Murder Mystery game thing. It sounds dorky, but it was pretty fun :) I was the heartbroken, still bitter ex-girlfriend :D I'm just mad that I didn't really warm up to the other people until near the end. I for sure am gonna do it again next year :)
I've been meaning to volunteer at my old daycare too. I went once last week, but I've been busy ever since. I've been meaning to go back. I should, tomorrow, since it's my only free day this week, but a part of me wants to come home and sleep and bum out. That's bad. :/ We'll see how I feel tomorrow haha
Ugh. And I've been meaning to work out more, but that's been an epic fail as well. I've stopped my nightly crunches due to late night internet surfing. And the treadmill is such a foreign object to me now haha. I should really fix that too.
I feel like skipping mentorship tomorrow. Maybe I will. I'll still wake up earlyish... Like 10. Then run or do Wii fit. And do daycare in the afternoon. I just don't have the energy in me (yet) to do it all at once, cause technically I could still do all of that without skipping mentorship (except the sleeping in part).
But anyways...
I've still been totally immersed in trying to spread the word about this EPICALLY AMAZING band called WHITE ROSE (who you should totally check out if you haven't already). Honestly, I'm not usually into their kind of music (punk/pop/rock) but I'm really liking their sound. Legit, legit. And they're all really sweet and grateful for ALL their fans, even if they are a bit odd sometimes (they ARE teenage boys after all). I'm still trying to figure out how to buy their EPs on iTunes without alerting my parents that I'm using my debit card for even MORE music (I just ordered All Time Low's "Nothing Personal" and bought Demi Lovato's "Here We Go Again"). If I had known about White Rose before buying Demi's CD, I would've gotten theirs instead :(
I also still need to get "Magic" by Honor Society (the owners of the OTHER half of my heart). I've been soooo into listening and promoting music lately. I almost feel like a Mandy wannabe haha I wish I could travel to their shows and meet them and stuff. That is one of my dreams now <33
And I keep getting sidetracked from finishing this blog, so I'll just end it here for the night.
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Friday Night Heroes
I run a street team now! Yep, this is my newest endeavor, and I plan to follow through with these guys all the way! They're gonna be famous one day, I just know it!
Oh, right. I should let you know who I'm talking about in the first place.
There are these four guys, Will, Ben, Matt, and Brandyn, in this band called White Rose (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband). They're what some would call punk/pop? I'm not sure, I just know that they're AMAZING. Musically and personally. These are some really great guys. Sweet and absolutely hysterical. You should definitely check out their music and their YouTube. I swear, you won't regret it!
And if you're feeling their music, then you should definitely add the Official Virginia White Rose Street Team myspace run by the amazingly epic... ME! :D Really though, add them and the street team! They hopefully might come to VA for a show, and we want to show them an EPIC time, so the more the merrier! Please spread the word and love!!
It would really mean a lot to me AND the guys.
Lovelovelove,
Angeline♥
P.S. The street team can be found here: www.myspace.com/whiterosevateam. It's on my Top Friends, along with White Rose themselves :)
P.P.S. Each member also has individual Facebooks, so if you have one, find them there and get to know them! They love all their fans so much! ♥
Oh, right. I should let you know who I'm talking about in the first place.
There are these four guys, Will, Ben, Matt, and Brandyn, in this band called White Rose (www.myspace.com/thewhiteroseband). They're what some would call punk/pop? I'm not sure, I just know that they're AMAZING. Musically and personally. These are some really great guys. Sweet and absolutely hysterical. You should definitely check out their music and their YouTube. I swear, you won't regret it!
And if you're feeling their music, then you should definitely add the Official Virginia White Rose Street Team myspace run by the amazingly epic... ME! :D Really though, add them and the street team! They hopefully might come to VA for a show, and we want to show them an EPIC time, so the more the merrier! Please spread the word and love!!
It would really mean a lot to me AND the guys.
Lovelovelove,
Angeline♥
P.S. The street team can be found here: www.myspace.com/whiterosevateam. It's on my Top Friends, along with White Rose themselves :)
P.P.S. Each member also has individual Facebooks, so if you have one, find them there and get to know them! They love all their fans so much! ♥
Thursday, July 30, 2009
I want a gentleman that treats me like a queen.
I love that line. [Credit goes to Demi Lovato, from her song "Everything You're Not" from her new album, Here We Go Again.]
But while we're on that topic...
I have never had a (real) boyfriend. People who know me personally know what I'm talking about. A lot of the reason is because I'm uber shy, especially around guys. Especially especially around cute guys. But I think another part of the reason is because my expectations of a guy are quite high.
First off, I'm an uber romantic at heart. I watch all the romance chick flicks, read all Nicholas Sparks's novels. I want that happy ending. I want that perfect relationship.
Second off, I crush on celebrities. A lot. Really hard. Especially amazing guys like Kevin, Joe, and Nick Jonas, and the gentlemen of Honor Society, Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Andrew Lee, and Jason Rosen. And I know it's unrealistic that I will EVER get with them, they set the standard of how a guy should be pretty high. Especially since they're celebs, and so far have not had any dirty laundry aired out in public. They are talented, good looking, kind, generous, funny, and COMPLETE gentlemen. Practically perfect.
This could be seen in a good, or bad way.
Good, because with my standards so high, I won't choose guys who are headed down the wrong path, who will hurt me in any way.
But bad, because with my expectations so high, I won't take risks. I won't live and experience and learn from those hurt from those risks. I may never find "the One."
So what do you think? Are having high expectations for relationships good or bad? Should I keep waiting for the perfect one? Or should I take a risk on someone who may or may not be the one?
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
But while we're on that topic...
I have never had a (real) boyfriend. People who know me personally know what I'm talking about. A lot of the reason is because I'm uber shy, especially around guys. Especially especially around cute guys. But I think another part of the reason is because my expectations of a guy are quite high.
First off, I'm an uber romantic at heart. I watch all the romance chick flicks, read all Nicholas Sparks's novels. I want that happy ending. I want that perfect relationship.
Second off, I crush on celebrities. A lot. Really hard. Especially amazing guys like Kevin, Joe, and Nick Jonas, and the gentlemen of Honor Society, Michael Bruno, Alexander Noyes, Andrew Lee, and Jason Rosen. And I know it's unrealistic that I will EVER get with them, they set the standard of how a guy should be pretty high. Especially since they're celebs, and so far have not had any dirty laundry aired out in public. They are talented, good looking, kind, generous, funny, and COMPLETE gentlemen. Practically perfect.
This could be seen in a good, or bad way.
Good, because with my standards so high, I won't choose guys who are headed down the wrong path, who will hurt me in any way.
But bad, because with my expectations so high, I won't take risks. I won't live and experience and learn from those hurt from those risks. I may never find "the One."
So what do you think? Are having high expectations for relationships good or bad? Should I keep waiting for the perfect one? Or should I take a risk on someone who may or may not be the one?
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Saturday, July 25, 2009
:(
Today, I came upon some saddening news.
My Tatay Juan is in terrible health. I knew he had a stoke at a young age, but I hadn't seen or heard from him in at least a year, and I had no idea that his condition was worsening. I found out today that he was put in a nursing home, and taken off pretty much all his medication. It doesn't really take a genius to figure out what's going on.
He isn't blood related to me at all, I don't think. He's my aunt's husband's father, I believe. But when Meg and I were young, he and his wife, Nanay Belen used to watch over us, and they've always had a piece of my heart almost as if they were my own grandparents.
Once I found out that he was doing pretty bad, JAMM decided that we wanted to visit him as soon as possible. So we did, only a few hours after hearing about it.
Just seeing him so tiny and frail in the bed made me tear up. Then again, I get emotional at every little thing, but still. When he saw the four of us, his face just lit up. He was so genuinely happy to see us, it almost broke my heart. Matt, who had visited him yesterday, told me that Tatay Juan still remembered me, when he didn't even remember Matt, who was his blood grandson. He smiled and laughed as he repeated our names, talking about how he remembered when we were so little, and how grown up we were now. (Actually, Tatay Juan mumbled while Nanay Belen translated). The entire time I fought back tears.
I've never had to deal with something like this with someone close to me before. And I'm not quite sure how to deal with it. I don't want to talk about it with people because I know I'll probably break down crying like I am now as I type this blog. I'm just not that great at sharing my emotions with people verbally.
I'm thinking about writing him a song. Or a poem. Whatever. I seem to do better in dealing with my emotions that way.
And at the same time harbouring this sadness over Tatay Juan, it gave me such respect for Nanay Belen. She's stayed by his bedside ever since he got transferred to the nursing home. The nurses have been super nice about letting her stay when she's technically not allowed. She just has such strength. I don't know how she does it, staying strong for Tatay Juan, for the entire family. She really is an inspiration.
I feel horrible for not keeping in better touch with Tatay Juan and Nanay Belen in the past few years. I feel horrible for not knowing about this until it's almost too late. JAMM is gonna visit him on Monday again though. Right after the FACADE thing, we're gonna go visit him. Matthew wants to bring his guitar and play one of Willie's songs since Tatay Juan says he misses watching Wowowee since there's no TFC in the nursing home haha And I just want to be there for him, even if I can't verbalize my emotions. I don't even know if he knows what's coming. And we plan to visit him as often as possible. Even if that means ditching on volunteer stuff. I think this is more important, don't you?
And I just needed to blog about this, get it off my chest before I go cry some more and fall asleep.
Love you, Tatay Juan. ♥
My Tatay Juan is in terrible health. I knew he had a stoke at a young age, but I hadn't seen or heard from him in at least a year, and I had no idea that his condition was worsening. I found out today that he was put in a nursing home, and taken off pretty much all his medication. It doesn't really take a genius to figure out what's going on.
He isn't blood related to me at all, I don't think. He's my aunt's husband's father, I believe. But when Meg and I were young, he and his wife, Nanay Belen used to watch over us, and they've always had a piece of my heart almost as if they were my own grandparents.
Once I found out that he was doing pretty bad, JAMM decided that we wanted to visit him as soon as possible. So we did, only a few hours after hearing about it.
Just seeing him so tiny and frail in the bed made me tear up. Then again, I get emotional at every little thing, but still. When he saw the four of us, his face just lit up. He was so genuinely happy to see us, it almost broke my heart. Matt, who had visited him yesterday, told me that Tatay Juan still remembered me, when he didn't even remember Matt, who was his blood grandson. He smiled and laughed as he repeated our names, talking about how he remembered when we were so little, and how grown up we were now. (Actually, Tatay Juan mumbled while Nanay Belen translated). The entire time I fought back tears.
I've never had to deal with something like this with someone close to me before. And I'm not quite sure how to deal with it. I don't want to talk about it with people because I know I'll probably break down crying like I am now as I type this blog. I'm just not that great at sharing my emotions with people verbally.
I'm thinking about writing him a song. Or a poem. Whatever. I seem to do better in dealing with my emotions that way.
And at the same time harbouring this sadness over Tatay Juan, it gave me such respect for Nanay Belen. She's stayed by his bedside ever since he got transferred to the nursing home. The nurses have been super nice about letting her stay when she's technically not allowed. She just has such strength. I don't know how she does it, staying strong for Tatay Juan, for the entire family. She really is an inspiration.
I feel horrible for not keeping in better touch with Tatay Juan and Nanay Belen in the past few years. I feel horrible for not knowing about this until it's almost too late. JAMM is gonna visit him on Monday again though. Right after the FACADE thing, we're gonna go visit him. Matthew wants to bring his guitar and play one of Willie's songs since Tatay Juan says he misses watching Wowowee since there's no TFC in the nursing home haha And I just want to be there for him, even if I can't verbalize my emotions. I don't even know if he knows what's coming. And we plan to visit him as often as possible. Even if that means ditching on volunteer stuff. I think this is more important, don't you?
And I just needed to blog about this, get it off my chest before I go cry some more and fall asleep.
Love you, Tatay Juan. ♥
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Yay!
So. I went in to school early this morning (on my day off from mentorship, ughh) so I could talk to Mr. Hailey (who's not even my guidance counselor) about getting my transcript for some insurance discount thingy and to ask about scholarships. Got my transcript and...
My GPA as of June 22, 2009 is *drumrollplease*.... 4.1851! Thank God for APs and weighted magnet classes :) I am also currently ranked 25 in a class of 566 students :) This makes me feel a bit better about all the college worries that had been running through my mind for a while.
Also, I went in to my old daycare/preschool place, The Academy of Early Learning, and I'm going to start volunteering there next week :) It's a fun and easy way to get volunteer hours and make references for letters of recommendation. And how hard could it be? I basically get to act like a 5 year old for a couple of hours a couple of times a week :)
AND I finally got my Honor Society merch in the mail!! My poster is already hanging on the wall :) And I'm so stoked to wear my glow in the dark See U in the Dark tshirt whenever possible hahaha
AND I got a mani-pedi and finally got my hair trimmed (bye-bye split ends!). I'm gonna grow it out, keep getting trims to prevent split ends, and when it's super long, I'm gonna cut it short and donate it to Locks of Love :)
So overall a pretty darn good day so far :)
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
My GPA as of June 22, 2009 is *drumrollplease*.... 4.1851! Thank God for APs and weighted magnet classes :) I am also currently ranked 25 in a class of 566 students :) This makes me feel a bit better about all the college worries that had been running through my mind for a while.
Also, I went in to my old daycare/preschool place, The Academy of Early Learning, and I'm going to start volunteering there next week :) It's a fun and easy way to get volunteer hours and make references for letters of recommendation. And how hard could it be? I basically get to act like a 5 year old for a couple of hours a couple of times a week :)
AND I finally got my Honor Society merch in the mail!! My poster is already hanging on the wall :) And I'm so stoked to wear my glow in the dark See U in the Dark tshirt whenever possible hahaha
AND I got a mani-pedi and finally got my hair trimmed (bye-bye split ends!). I'm gonna grow it out, keep getting trims to prevent split ends, and when it's super long, I'm gonna cut it short and donate it to Locks of Love :)
So overall a pretty darn good day so far :)
Lovelovelove,
Ange♥
Monday, July 20, 2009
Eye Opener
I wrote a little ditty in about ten minutes. I was feeling down, and read Christa Black's blog. And this is the result. This is for you, Christa.
Eye Opener
The pain
The depression
It weighed you down
You had no control
Walked around with a frown
But now you're living the dream
Life full of love
Music and happiness
But your journey wasn't easy
Yet you still rose above
And you inspire me
You've opened my eyes
I am beautiful
There's no need to cry
I am loved
From the ashes I can rise
You give me hope
To start each day anew
And I write this for Christa Black
Thank you,
Thank you.
I'm quite aware it's kinda crappy. But I mean every single word.
In case you don't know who Christa Black is, she's an amazing musician, and an even more amazing woman. Through her painfully true and emotional story through blogging, she is such an inspiration to so many girls around the world.
So if you're reading this Christa, on behalf of us all, thank you.
Eye Opener
The pain
The depression
It weighed you down
You had no control
Walked around with a frown
But now you're living the dream
Life full of love
Music and happiness
But your journey wasn't easy
Yet you still rose above
And you inspire me
You've opened my eyes
I am beautiful
There's no need to cry
I am loved
From the ashes I can rise
You give me hope
To start each day anew
And I write this for Christa Black
Thank you,
Thank you.
I'm quite aware it's kinda crappy. But I mean every single word.
In case you don't know who Christa Black is, she's an amazing musician, and an even more amazing woman. Through her painfully true and emotional story through blogging, she is such an inspiration to so many girls around the world.
So if you're reading this Christa, on behalf of us all, thank you.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
FULL MOON CRAZYYYY
(This was written last night, around 1am. No internet service available til now. Continue reading...)
Honor Society is my new love. Just got back from the Jonas Brothers' World Tour concert and Honor Society's Full Moon Crazy show... and as much as I LOVE JB and their show, I have to give the night to Honor Society. They totally OWNED it. I didn't even know most of their songs, but I had an absolute BLAST!!! Their songs are all sooo good, either singable or danceable, and I am so stoked for their new album, Fashionably Late, which comes out September 15, 2009, and you should totally get it. ;) I am just sooo upset that I didn't get to meet Honor Society, or Greg Garbowsky, which I reallllyyyy wanted to do. Hopefully next time :)
I did get to meet Michael Bruno briefly before either concerts and got a picture with him. He is SUCH a gentleman, no duh! :) When we asked where we could purchase FMC tickets, he had the security guard guide us through the mob.
I really wish all of Honor Society the best of luck, and if they by chance read this, I just want to say thank you for the amazing night (that's what she said lol) and for the amazing music. I really hope to meet you someday and maybe even be friends :)
World Tour:
Crazyy fun!! I was sweating and tired by the time Honor Society finished performing, and they were the first act!! Jordin Sparks amazing as well. I haven't really heard a lot of her music, but she rocked it out! The Wonder Girls were good as well. Their song/dance, Nobody is quite catchy :)
And of course, the Jonas Brothers. Of course they totally rocked it out! I was on my feet the WHOLE time, singing and dancing around. It was awesome to just let loose and not care what others think cause they were doing it too!!
Full Moon Crazy:
God, this was just... EPIC. It was in a small synagogue place, small, and intimate, which was why I loved it so much. Whenever Mike sang, it felt as if he was singing straight to me. I loved it. Like i said before, i didn't know all the songs, but the whole place was just so high energy and the songs were so good that you couldn't help but dance along at least.
Near the end of the show, Nick, Joe, and Garbo (dreamysigh) were seen up near the balcony, and everyone started freaking out. As much as I love Nick, Joe, and Garbo (which is a lot, trust me) I felt it was a bit disrespectful of the fans... it was HONOR SOCIETY's show, and it was their time to shine.
And unfortunately, they got out quickly, so we didn't get a chance to meet them. :'(
I reallllyyy want to meet Honor Society and Garbo, so I for sure plan to go to their next concerts. I WILL meet them haha
(This now written today, the 14th)
So last night was totallyyyyy epic. Like, hands down probably THE best night of my life. My feet ached, my throat hurt, my hearing is still a bit iffy, but it was WORTH EVERY MINUTE OF IT. I stood and danced and jumped and screamed for five hours straight, and had the best time of my life.
Honor Society, Jonas Brothers, you have NO idea how much I want to thank you right now from the bottom of my heart for giving me such an unforgettable fun filled night.
Honor Society is my new love. Just got back from the Jonas Brothers' World Tour concert and Honor Society's Full Moon Crazy show... and as much as I LOVE JB and their show, I have to give the night to Honor Society. They totally OWNED it. I didn't even know most of their songs, but I had an absolute BLAST!!! Their songs are all sooo good, either singable or danceable, and I am so stoked for their new album, Fashionably Late, which comes out September 15, 2009, and you should totally get it. ;) I am just sooo upset that I didn't get to meet Honor Society, or Greg Garbowsky, which I reallllyyyy wanted to do. Hopefully next time :)
I did get to meet Michael Bruno briefly before either concerts and got a picture with him. He is SUCH a gentleman, no duh! :) When we asked where we could purchase FMC tickets, he had the security guard guide us through the mob.
I really wish all of Honor Society the best of luck, and if they by chance read this, I just want to say thank you for the amazing night (that's what she said lol) and for the amazing music. I really hope to meet you someday and maybe even be friends :)
World Tour:
Crazyy fun!! I was sweating and tired by the time Honor Society finished performing, and they were the first act!! Jordin Sparks amazing as well. I haven't really heard a lot of her music, but she rocked it out! The Wonder Girls were good as well. Their song/dance, Nobody is quite catchy :)
And of course, the Jonas Brothers. Of course they totally rocked it out! I was on my feet the WHOLE time, singing and dancing around. It was awesome to just let loose and not care what others think cause they were doing it too!!
Full Moon Crazy:
God, this was just... EPIC. It was in a small synagogue place, small, and intimate, which was why I loved it so much. Whenever Mike sang, it felt as if he was singing straight to me. I loved it. Like i said before, i didn't know all the songs, but the whole place was just so high energy and the songs were so good that you couldn't help but dance along at least.
Near the end of the show, Nick, Joe, and Garbo (dreamysigh) were seen up near the balcony, and everyone started freaking out. As much as I love Nick, Joe, and Garbo (which is a lot, trust me) I felt it was a bit disrespectful of the fans... it was HONOR SOCIETY's show, and it was their time to shine.
And unfortunately, they got out quickly, so we didn't get a chance to meet them. :'(
I reallllyyy want to meet Honor Society and Garbo, so I for sure plan to go to their next concerts. I WILL meet them haha
(This now written today, the 14th)
So last night was totallyyyyy epic. Like, hands down probably THE best night of my life. My feet ached, my throat hurt, my hearing is still a bit iffy, but it was WORTH EVERY MINUTE OF IT. I stood and danced and jumped and screamed for five hours straight, and had the best time of my life.
Honor Society, Jonas Brothers, you have NO idea how much I want to thank you right now from the bottom of my heart for giving me such an unforgettable fun filled night.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Identity crisis
I believe I may be going through one :/
I don't know, I just feel so... lost? I'm not sure if that would be the right adjective.
I feel disconnected from my three cousins who are honestly like the brothers and sisters I never had. I just feel left out a lot. They have a lot of inside jokes I'm not in on, they do things without me. Being a part of that my whole life and suddenly feeling like I don't belong is just throwing me out of whack.
And when I think about my future, I get scared. I get worried about college. Because really? I don't have much that makes me stand out. I have no talents. I don't play any instruments. I don't play any sports. I'm not involved in the community.
I don't even know what my personality is.
I used to say that I was a caring person. Always there for people. Yet when my close friends break down, I have no clue what to do. I'm an awkward moose.
And my parents. God, I love my parents, and I know they love me, but sometimes I just don't feel... I don't know? Appreciated? All I ever hear from their mouths is criticism. I don't clean around the house, I'm lazy, I need to work out more and eat less.
I fell asleep on the car ride home, and tears started rolling down my face. When I got home, I looked in a mirror and realized that my mascara was running. My parents hadn't even noticed anything. Now I could be overreacting, maybe they didn't get a good look at my face.
I just feel so alone sometimes.
I don't know who I am.
And now I'm crying, typing on the computer.
Who am I?
I don't know, I just feel so... lost? I'm not sure if that would be the right adjective.
I feel disconnected from my three cousins who are honestly like the brothers and sisters I never had. I just feel left out a lot. They have a lot of inside jokes I'm not in on, they do things without me. Being a part of that my whole life and suddenly feeling like I don't belong is just throwing me out of whack.
And when I think about my future, I get scared. I get worried about college. Because really? I don't have much that makes me stand out. I have no talents. I don't play any instruments. I don't play any sports. I'm not involved in the community.
I don't even know what my personality is.
I used to say that I was a caring person. Always there for people. Yet when my close friends break down, I have no clue what to do. I'm an awkward moose.
And my parents. God, I love my parents, and I know they love me, but sometimes I just don't feel... I don't know? Appreciated? All I ever hear from their mouths is criticism. I don't clean around the house, I'm lazy, I need to work out more and eat less.
I fell asleep on the car ride home, and tears started rolling down my face. When I got home, I looked in a mirror and realized that my mascara was running. My parents hadn't even noticed anything. Now I could be overreacting, maybe they didn't get a good look at my face.
I just feel so alone sometimes.
I don't know who I am.
And now I'm crying, typing on the computer.
Who am I?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Times slow?
I can't believe it's only July 1st tomorrow. Is it just me, or has summer gone by pretty slowly so far? Still two months left before SENIOR YEAR. Not that I'm complaining or anything ;)
So I'm trying to get into better sleeping habits since my mentorship's started and I have to wake up at 6:30ish now. But it seems that I just go to bed later and later each night. I'm not really good at this whole make-a-plan-then-stick-with-it thing.
Oh, I totally had one CRAZYYY dream last night. But details will not be shared. Because, like I said, it was crazy.
But otherwise, my day has gone by really good :)
Mentorship was chill as always. I watched the nurse draw blood, and I didn't faint! Yay me! :) And then afterwards, went to visit AJ. Gah, I love that kid. I think we spoil him too much. He cries a lot lately whenever he doesn't get his way. We should work on fixing that.
Bad note: Fam wants to take a road trip to Dover. Normally wouldn't mind, but it's 4th of july weekend, and it's the FIL-AM FEST this Saturday! And me and my cousins totally want to go. But the adults won't let us stay. Booooo. Me and Meg are 17! And it's not like we'd be completely alone. We'd spend the night at a (adult) cousin's house so no worries there. Ugh. We really wanna go to the FIL AM FEST.
I watched Taken today. I love RedBox :) It was pretty awesome :) I love me some action/drama movies :) I also got Bride Wars and Paul Blart: Mall Cop, so I'll probably watch those tomorrow.
I should be in bed. So I shall go now. :)
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So I'm trying to get into better sleeping habits since my mentorship's started and I have to wake up at 6:30ish now. But it seems that I just go to bed later and later each night. I'm not really good at this whole make-a-plan-then-stick-with-it thing.
Oh, I totally had one CRAZYYY dream last night. But details will not be shared. Because, like I said, it was crazy.
But otherwise, my day has gone by really good :)
Mentorship was chill as always. I watched the nurse draw blood, and I didn't faint! Yay me! :) And then afterwards, went to visit AJ. Gah, I love that kid. I think we spoil him too much. He cries a lot lately whenever he doesn't get his way. We should work on fixing that.
Bad note: Fam wants to take a road trip to Dover. Normally wouldn't mind, but it's 4th of july weekend, and it's the FIL-AM FEST this Saturday! And me and my cousins totally want to go. But the adults won't let us stay. Booooo. Me and Meg are 17! And it's not like we'd be completely alone. We'd spend the night at a (adult) cousin's house so no worries there. Ugh. We really wanna go to the FIL AM FEST.
I watched Taken today. I love RedBox :) It was pretty awesome :) I love me some action/drama movies :) I also got Bride Wars and Paul Blart: Mall Cop, so I'll probably watch those tomorrow.
I should be in bed. So I shall go now. :)
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Monday, June 29, 2009
Headacheeee
So I have a pretty low tolerance for pain. The headache's not actually that bad, but I don't usually get them, so when I do, I don't like them and I complain a lot :)
Today was my first day at my mentorship at a family doctor's office. It was pretty chill. The Doc's really nice, and so are the nurse and secretary people :)
Some of the patients were Filipino and/or my parents friends, so we made friendly chit chat, and that was nice :) I love how Filipinos are nice to each other, even when you don't know them :)
So I got home and after more debut shopping/planning (which is getting harder, even though it's still over six months away) I watched He's Just Not That Into You (which I loved, but then again, I'm a sucker for any chick flick) and The Curious Case of Benjamin (which was reallyyy good, but reallyyy long as well).
And my head still hurts :( So yeah, the end of today's blog.
Today was my first day at my mentorship at a family doctor's office. It was pretty chill. The Doc's really nice, and so are the nurse and secretary people :)
Some of the patients were Filipino and/or my parents friends, so we made friendly chit chat, and that was nice :) I love how Filipinos are nice to each other, even when you don't know them :)
So I got home and after more debut shopping/planning (which is getting harder, even though it's still over six months away) I watched He's Just Not That Into You (which I loved, but then again, I'm a sucker for any chick flick) and The Curious Case of Benjamin (which was reallyyy good, but reallyyy long as well).
And my head still hurts :( So yeah, the end of today's blog.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Sober
With the opening of a new blog, it only feels right to start off with a poem.
In case you don't know, I like to write. Mostly poetry and fanfiction (yes, I'm a dork).
These poems I write are almost always 100% personal. As Anna Nalick wrote, "these words are my diary screaming out loud." So I'm stepping out of my personal comfort zone by posting these online where people I don't even know can read these. So please, if you choose to comment, show some respect.
I wrote this little ditty on Friday while I was volunteering at the library :) So the rhyme scheme is a bit simple, but hey, whatever. It's called
Sober
I used to spend every minute
Thinking about him
I was crazy in love
He was my addiction
For years this went on
Only hurting myself
He didn't love me back
It was like a living hell
I knew I needed to stop
But I didn't know where to start
It had been going on too long
I was in too far
Then one day I woke up
Decided to quite cold turkey
I was tired of being sad all the time
For once I wanted to be happy
It wasn't easy
And it took a lot of time
But I eventually got over him
Me and this heart of mine
Now I'm stronger than ever
Better than I've ever been
I didn't realize it before
But I'm better off without him
I'm learning to be happy with myself
He's happy with his girl
It really is freeing
To finally be sober.
In case you don't know, I like to write. Mostly poetry and fanfiction (yes, I'm a dork).
These poems I write are almost always 100% personal. As Anna Nalick wrote, "these words are my diary screaming out loud." So I'm stepping out of my personal comfort zone by posting these online where people I don't even know can read these. So please, if you choose to comment, show some respect.
I wrote this little ditty on Friday while I was volunteering at the library :) So the rhyme scheme is a bit simple, but hey, whatever. It's called
Sober
I used to spend every minute
Thinking about him
I was crazy in love
He was my addiction
For years this went on
Only hurting myself
He didn't love me back
It was like a living hell
I knew I needed to stop
But I didn't know where to start
It had been going on too long
I was in too far
Then one day I woke up
Decided to quite cold turkey
I was tired of being sad all the time
For once I wanted to be happy
It wasn't easy
And it took a lot of time
But I eventually got over him
Me and this heart of mine
Now I'm stronger than ever
Better than I've ever been
I didn't realize it before
But I'm better off without him
I'm learning to be happy with myself
He's happy with his girl
It really is freeing
To finally be sober.
Welcome.
So I used to have a xanga.
But I've cleared it out and shut it down.
I'm not sure why, but I feel like I should start over on a new blog place.
Some things have changed. A lot really hasn't.
But this is a new page.
Welcome to my mind, heart, and soul.
But I've cleared it out and shut it down.
I'm not sure why, but I feel like I should start over on a new blog place.
Some things have changed. A lot really hasn't.
But this is a new page.
Welcome to my mind, heart, and soul.
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