Times slow?

I can't believe it's only July 1st tomorrow. Is it just me, or has summer gone by pretty slowly so far? Still two months left before SENIOR YEAR. Not that I'm complaining or anything ;)

So I'm trying to get into better sleeping habits since my mentorship's started and I have to wake up at 6:30ish now. But it seems that I just go to bed later and later each night. I'm not really good at this whole make-a-plan-then-stick-with-it thing.

Oh, I totally had one CRAZYYY dream last night. But details will not be shared. Because, like I said, it was crazy.

But otherwise, my day has gone by really good :)

Mentorship was chill as always. I watched the nurse draw blood, and I didn't faint! Yay me! :) And then afterwards, went to visit AJ. Gah, I love that kid. I think we spoil him too much. He cries a lot lately whenever he doesn't get his way. We should work on fixing that.

Bad note: Fam wants to take a road trip to Dover. Normally wouldn't mind, but it's 4th of july weekend, and it's the FIL-AM FEST this Saturday! And me and my cousins totally want to go. But the adults won't let us stay. Booooo. Me and Meg are 17! And it's not like we'd be completely alone. We'd spend the night at a (adult) cousin's house so no worries there. Ugh. We really wanna go to the FIL AM FEST.

I watched Taken today. I love RedBox :) It was pretty awesome :) I love me some action/drama movies :) I also got Bride Wars and Paul Blart: Mall Cop, so I'll probably watch those tomorrow.

I should be in bed. So I shall go now. :)

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Headacheeee

So I have a pretty low tolerance for pain. The headache's not actually that bad, but I don't usually get them, so when I do, I don't like them and I complain a lot :)

Today was my first day at my mentorship at a family doctor's office. It was pretty chill. The Doc's really nice, and so are the nurse and secretary people :)

Some of the patients were Filipino and/or my parents friends, so we made friendly chit chat, and that was nice :) I love how Filipinos are nice to each other, even when you don't know them :)

So I got home and after more debut shopping/planning (which is getting harder, even though it's still over six months away) I watched He's Just Not That Into You (which I loved, but then again, I'm a sucker for any chick flick) and The Curious Case of Benjamin (which was reallyyy good, but reallyyy long as well).

And my head still hurts :( So yeah, the end of today's blog.

Sober

With the opening of a new blog, it only feels right to start off with a poem.

In case you don't know, I like to write. Mostly poetry and fanfiction (yes, I'm a dork).

These poems I write are almost always 100% personal. As Anna Nalick wrote, "these words are my diary screaming out loud." So I'm stepping out of my personal comfort zone by posting these online where people I don't even know can read these. So please, if you choose to comment, show some respect.

I wrote this little ditty on Friday while I was volunteering at the library :) So the rhyme scheme is a bit simple, but hey, whatever. It's called

Sober

I used to spend every minute
Thinking about him
I was crazy in love
He was my addiction

For years this went on
Only hurting myself
He didn't love me back
It was like a living hell

I knew I needed to stop
But I didn't know where to start
It had been going on too long
I was in too far

Then one day I woke up
Decided to quite cold turkey
I was tired of being sad all the time
For once I wanted to be happy

It wasn't easy
And it took a lot of time
But I eventually got over him
Me and this heart of mine

Now I'm stronger than ever
Better than I've ever been
I didn't realize it before
But I'm better off without him

I'm learning to be happy with myself
He's happy with his girl
It really is freeing
To finally be sober.

Welcome.

So I used to have a xanga.

But I've cleared it out and shut it down.

I'm not sure why, but I feel like I should start over on a new blog place.

Some things have changed. A lot really hasn't.

But this is a new page.

Welcome to my mind, heart, and soul.